Just like it used to be

Sorrow fills my bones, weakening me to the point of destruction
I feel the pain running through my veins, making me tremble
I'm thinking of you, my friend, who passed too soon

I miss you so much my stomach hurts whenever you cross my mind
I wish you would have stayed here with me in this evil world
But it proved too hard for you and you couldn't take it anymore
And so your story ended on the end of a rope in your best friends livingroom

I still remember the emotions when I saw you hanging from the ceiling
Your face purple and your eyes bloodshot
You left no note, no recording, just the three words written on your naked thigh
"I'm sorry, John."

I remember how I broke down and lay weeping and sobbing in a corner
With you in my arms, stroking your hair and kissing your forehead
Saying "Don't leave me, you can't leave me, I'm nothing without you!"

I still can't believe you left me alone in this place, this Hell
I hate you for it, yet I love you so much it hurts and I miss you so much I can't breathe

You showed me a world I didn't know, with laughter and joy, all pain hidden away
But then you left me. YOU LEFT ME!
Please, come back to me...

And in his head played a line from the song "Hate Me" by Blue october

"Just make her smile come back and shine just like it used to be"