Lost

Lost in a world of pain and hate, love and regrets,
I talk to you, my words betraying emotions I want hidden away.
I tell you my secrets without uttering a word, and you see the ruby tears running down my face,
leaving scars which will never heal.

You look at me, reading the thoughts behind my lies
Your eyes glitter in the evening light and I see the truth of who you are.
A devil inside, acting like the angel I thought you to be.
Swallowing me up in a twisted game of feelings where the prize is too high.

My heart keeps beating harder when I see you smile and I thought yours was the same.
Yet you turn away when you see me looking at you and pretend I'm not there.
The prize of the war I'm going through is the love I am able to feel for someone else.
You will kill it, I am sure, but you don't care, long as you survive.

So I stand here all alone in a world of pain and hate, sorrow and regrets.
I talk to you, my feelings hidden, my emotions under lock and key.
No secrets will you hear cross my lips and no tears will you get from me.
The scars I once had are gone now, because I am better without you.
And you will never see me again.

I am happy.